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||[Apr. 6th, 2006|08:17 pm]
i think i should re-arrange my life. its been in dis-array for a very long time, i let it rut in a natural cause, so many things i took for granted in the name of love. how many times did you hear that? Not once, maybe a million times....but since the world population is billions then maybe so many humans feel the same. In the name of love...one man come and go!|
so, but i dont want to waste time trying to quantify love, maybe i just fall in to that cliche like any other human being. i bow down, humble myself for those people who been there and back. but anyways, i have my fare share and i did not regret what i did, and what i do for love.
now, lets talk about rebuilding a life which i ultimately let it rot for quite sometime.'
I am back in Carleton University, I always wanted to study engineering, and here I am. for those of you who know me all through these years, you know i will get here. its just a matter of when, but here i am. allthough.........i was delayed.
running..ah yes, i still run, in fact on April 1st, i will compete again in 5K race. I have not prepared anything but i guess its something to get my feet wet. summer is the opportunity for me to get to know myself again.
karate.........i can't believe it, all through these years I trained so hard and my black belt grading is coming up this June. I hear it is a brutal weekend, but i think it is just a culmination of what i did for the past couple of years. I felt strong, i felt i have resurrected from a deep sleep, coming out for abyss. Im sure people wonder where, what i did for the last year. I will not tell you in details, but suffice to say, i got pregnant, i give birth to a baby boy and here i am, a single mother like many woman you meet anywhere in this world. so my training is every sunday, lets say additional training since i still train during the week three times. one hour and a half of training really strengthens me, i feel ready to face the world. have i told you that there were days in my life when i was so depress and i feel like the world is against me. now, i dont feel that way, i feel the world loves me. everything i do, i find support and life really really flourishes in me.
development and peace.(www.devp.org) yes, i am catholic, born one and will die one. no one will come between me and my faith, let it be philosphy, even love at its crueliest form. i have sheer determination to let my faith be me, and entwined with me. I dont say i will be a nun and pray everyday, but i like to embrace humanity in the essence of being one with them because they are my brothers and sisters in christ. I joined Devt. and Peace of carleton University and it is a very promising organization. I believe that we can make a difference by not just talking about it, but really go out and see places and feel their pain, their problems, the indifference that they felt all these years of ravage civil war that destroyed their homes and families. where is love in the midst of war? where is love in hunger? I don't know I would not know....i like to see, to live and tell what was it like. i am going to Guatemala in July 15-29,2006 a two week humanitrian work and i hope i become more human again. to feel , to breath and to be thankful for the air i breath everyday and the sun that shines so bright that it gives me energy to write this long.
friends -i feel a little bit shy not telling anyone when did i come back from the dead. but hey, my friends are very understanding people. they just accept the fact that i am back, and i do not have to give explanation for my leave. im happy, i feel re-assured, i love life, i am back on the road again.
road warrior - i am in love with my road warrior, ah probably all of you know that, i bike rain or shine and my road warrior take me anywhere I go. i am excited to see it again, tracy keep it safe for me while i was away.
and yeah, i am glad to know she is getting married this may. wow, am i getting older? i love happy endings and i am so thrilled with this new adventure of her. I wish them both the happiness they deserve in this world.
swimming - so carleton has a swimming pool, and i am privilidge to be here, anytime it is open i can swim with my little fins. am i a fish? or just i love the water. it that an element of life, maybe so? i enjoy the best of life in water, in space. i do love the rain, i like to get soak in the rain and would definitely dance naked in the rain.
running - i love running, i run in all directions without a purprose why i run but just just sheer pleasure of running. i even work at running room, just to be close to people who love to run, and for the sake of whatever it is related to running. its been my lifeline, its been my crosstraining for karate and swimming.
i might do a triathlon one day!